No Me Destruyas

its just how things work out

so its not like im hurting to be in a relationship.


yeah they are amazing when you find the right person
but its mainly that i don't feel like going through the cycle that happens to be my relationships.

but everyonce in awhile i find someone who is rlly unique in there own sort of way.


i told a girl i liked her she has a bf.
smiled and said oh well. maybe ill meet someone new.
thought to myself


came up with a whole new way of thinking


maybe its timming that affects how i get relationships
yeah maybe i just have horrible timming.


meet someone else...ask if she has a bf
she just got with some the day before yesterday
she said i had bad timming

i couldn't help but laugh



"don't i know it"


today i was listening to my frnds ipod and hanging out with some frnds
one girl in particular i talk to a lot


i couldn't hear anything though
headphones in my ears no one seemed to notice i had them on



she asks me out


i don't hear anything
she looks at me wierd
i look at her wierd


she walks away


my friend slaps me and tells me what just happend







i laughed hysterically





it's just my life



it's just how things work out



atleast for me anyway





oh well

i sooo wanna play this now

a dedication with ramen

today was the first time in a long time that i had the time and the money to actually go to my favorite ramen house.

i posted a blog about it awhile back and i havnt gone to it since then so today was a hella good day.

the only problem was my ramen budy jacob has been feeling quite ill and he didn't show up but my frnd Toni filled his vacant seat as best he could. So we started out saying jacobs moto



"good food good meat good god lets eat"


Good friend alex tried out the zarsia ramen this time. FUCK YEAH!!!

i brought these two freshies along they are cool people so i thought they might enjoy some good food and nice conversation (hahah)


the nigguh toni filling jacobs seat. he did a good job but yeah the whole meal was dedicated to jacob.

you can see danny in the backround he was there too. wierd pic of me w/e.

like i said we dedicated teh meal to jacob and also our really good friend amber who is fighting a really harsh sickness right now and we all wish her the best and hope we get to see her soon.
she's the coolest person you'll ever know and she cos-played like Yuna for halloween and it was fuckin sexy!!! we miss her greatly.


i bought a new game. good for a smile. yeah.



this was my frnds schedule for the day some time ago andyeah HALARIOUS!


i was on the bus and i looked down.




i thought this stain looked like a rooster.




that is all.




ohh i've given up on waiting for shit to happen now im just gonna forget about all my troubles and live for music and art.

*sigh*

i could be happy too

If i could reach the stars




Id pull one down for you



Shine it one my heart



So you could see the truth



that this love i have inside



is everything it seems



But for now I find, it's only in my dreams





If I could be king, even for a day




I'd take you as my queen, I'd have it no other way




And our love would rule, this kingdom we have made




Till then I'll be a fool, wishin' for the day



That I can change the world,
I would be the sunlight in your universe.



You would think my love was really something good,
Baby if I could change the world.




If I could change the world,
I would be the sunlight in your universe.
You would think my love was really something good,
Baby if I could change the world.

HE DOES TOO EXIST!!!!!! =(

mother of christ!

Man i really need a camera then i could be more current with these posts. also id probably have a lot more to talk about eh w/e im broke.

i need to find a copy of black n white that was teh coolest game ever. it was soo much fun.
being god and what not.



so yeah back to wat i was here for.

i've been finding completly random stuff and its just really really wierd.

take this for example.

this wrapper is HELLA old i don't know how long its been there. my frnd jay and me found it on the cat walk above our concert hall. we just had to think how long ago some ate that 3 musketeer bar.


takin today. its like a tanned hide of a rat in an alley way next to my friends house. we walked by it and yeah it was pretty gross. looks like leather face.



so anyway last saturday after i played an upland jazz festival i had to go play another show but it got raided but lucky it wasn't that far from my house so i walked home.
it was like probably midnight or something and i was pretty tired.


i though i was hallocinating cause as i was walking.....i saw a horse....
yeah a FREAGGIN HORSE!!! it came from behind a tree and it was just eating grass in someones yard. it was completly random i thought it wasnt real but i went to touch it and it was TOTALLY THERE!!!. it was dark as hell so this was the best picture i got.
ITS A FREAGGIN HORSE!!!!
i walked to my bus stop and i pass by this house a lot and this morning i went to go see if the horse was there but it wasnt there was no sign of a horse at all.

so im kinda trippin.


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